A Tough Decision

Theres a time in our life where we find out who our true friends are. Where we know what kind of person we are and who we want to be friends with. We have to learn to move on. Leave the friend behind that has different values, personalites, and is a whole different person than we thought. It's hard to deal with but sometimes letting go of a friend is the best thing to do. We need to come to terms that they are who we thought they were and we've grown up to become different people. We are in the middle of being a kid and being an adult. It's the hardest time in a person's life. You have to decide who you want to be and what you want to do in your life. You grow apart from old friends and make new friends. That point where you have to decide where you're going to go from here is where I'm at now. I've had to make the decision that my best friend since kindergarten isn't the person she used to be and the person where we could talk for hours about nothing and talk about what we are going to do after high school isn't the same person now. She's at the middle of her life where there's that fine line of trying to help her and letting her go. I've had to make the decision to let her go. I didn't want to accept that it is the best thing to do but I have to do it. To not hold myself back and hold on to someone who doesn't exist anymore. I want the old her back but for now that's not going to happen so I have to move on. It will be hard but I've learned who my true best friend is and as far as I know she's not going anywhere. This is my decision that I had to make. Sometimes we need to let go and move on. Change can be good.

Catch Up.

Oh my goodness! It has been such a long time! Where do I start?
Let's start the beginning of the summer. 
-I went on trek which was a BLAST!
-I sprained my ankle on trek. oh well.
-I spent about 3 weeks in Provo at my cousins house. UNFORGETTABLE
-I took my permit test and passed with 80% first time!!!
-I took drivers Ed. and passed my road test with a 95!!! Oh yeah!
-Then school started on August 22, 2011
-I'm a sophomore at Murray High
-I'm lovin' majority of it!
-I'm part of Peer Leadership Team and it is absolutely GREAT!!!
-Now I'm here. My 5th week of high school and trying to survive still. It's getting better and I know this year will be great! 
Nothing else major has been happening. 


ONLY 7 MORE DAYS TILL'  I TURN 16!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I'm not doing anything super exciting and no, I don't get my license on my birthday. I can get it on January 7, 2012. 
Wow, It sounds crazy to say 2012! Time goes by way to fast!!!


Hopefully and I can remember to write more!


Loves!

Name change

So I changed the name of my blog and I decided to change the whole thing. My best friend Ashtyn over at

helped me with it. I couldn't of done it without her. I love her! I'm hopefully going to have a button soon! After this week there is only one more week of school! I am so excited! Next Wednesday we are going to Lagoon! My only problem is I don't have money yet. I'm praying someone will need me to babysit for them or something.
Well I hope you have a wonderful day lovelies!

p.s. what do you think of the name and design?

A Rant

I'm going to rant just a little bit today. {Don't Judge}
First this is MY THING. I started it.
I start a lot of things that you like to copy.
I know that you probably just like my ideas or something
But you don't make me think that when you're trying to better
Than me at my own thing.
I know that I'm not very good at it but
That doesn't give you the right to take over.
And THEN tell me how to do it better.
It kind of annoys me after awhile.
Maybe I'm just exaggerating a little bit here
But this is how I feel.
This isn't the only thing you've done it with.
You do it with a lot of things.
I copy you at somethings but I never try to better than you
at your own game.
Forgive me if I'm out of line here.
I'm just having strong feelings about this subject at the moment.

Guess What?!?

I made PLT!!! PLT stands for Peer Leadership Team. For those who don't know it's a class taught in high school by the amazing Mrs. Waite {or so I hear}. They help with Drug & Abuse Prevention and other things that promote positive life skills. I am so excited for High School. I'll be going to Murray High School {David Archuleta went there}. I have high hopes for High School. I guess I shouldn't in case it sucks but I'm praying it won't. I've had lots of advice but i think it's one of those things where no matter how much advise you've had, you still won't be prepared. You just have to learn on you're own. I hope you're a having a lovely Sunday lovelies!

THE JOY OF BEING SICK.

I feel like I'm so disconnected from the world when I'm sick. All I do is watch re-runs of 7th Heaven and Gilmore Girls and whatever else is on TV in the middle of the day. I don't blog, I don't go on facebook, I don't text anyone (well I never text anyone because I don't have a phone that has minutes at the moment). I become a social outcast. You think I would be used to this since I'm sick like every 2 weeks but, no. But Whatever. Hope you day is bright. Soak up some sun for me!

Arachnophobia

I am deathly afraid of spiders. Today there was possibly a black widow in my garage above my head. I say possibly because I wouldn't get close enough to look and see if it was and my brother and mother couldn't get a good look. So I had a MAJOR freak out and almost died. Okay I exaggerate. But I did freak out a ton. I ran in the house on the verge of a melt down. Yes. over a spider. I wish I wasn't afraid of them but whatever. I almost put on a picture of a spider but I couldn't bear to google a picture and put it on. Well, have a Amazing night.

Breathe. Just Breathe.

Sometimes you just need to take a breather.
You just need to stop and think. Well don't think because when you think you get stressed.
So Don't think.
Anyways. Breathing is good and helps you calm down.
You get a new look and it helps.
Just do it. Breathe.
I dare you.
Keep calm and carry on.

This a super boring weekend where I got nothing done. Instead of doing homework, I got more from missing school due to a stupid sickness that doesn't have a name because it is so uncool like that. And instead of cleaning my room I made it worse by throwing tons and tons of tissues all over. Yes. That was my week. How was yours?

p.s. Only 7 more weeks of school! Then its glorious hot summer thats here to stay!

I could say... but I would be lying

Right now I could say life is great! but I would be lying. Everyone in my family is sick, except my sister.
Right now I could say that I am happy there is about 40 days left of school but I would be lying. I don't want 9th grade to be over.
Right now I could say that I'm happy today was somewhat sunny. but I would be lying. I didn't get to enjoy it so I hated it. (i'm not that good of person to be above getting mad at the weather.)
Right now I could say I'm beautiful at the moment. but i would be lying. I look like crap from being sick.
Right now I could say I would rather be at school. but i would be lying. I would have to deal with friends I don't have anything in common with anymore.
Right now I could say The Gospel has helped me so much! I would NOT be lying.

Vintage Wanna Bee Giveaway

http://vintagewannabee.blogspot.com/2011/04/1000-peeps-giveaway.html

I love Nichelle! She has the cutest stuff and is AMAZINGLY talented! Just so you know!

Dreams?

Have you ever really thought about dreams? We all think about our dreams and sometimes try to interpet what they're saying but have you ever really thought about the whole concept of dreams. Dreams are one of those many topics that confuse me. I get confuzzled easily. I've always wondered if dreams really have meanings or if we're so bored when we are asleep we need a little imagination. The other night I had one of the most bizarre dreams ever where it's so bizarre you can't even begin to explain it. And have you noticed dreams are never in sequence. They are totally scattered all over and only half the time you get the 'meaning' of it. Maybe this is all in my head and only I have crazy, bizarre, random, confuzzling dreams. Do you ever wish you could dream in black and white? Or have you? I certainly wish I could. I've dreamt in pink before. Yes, pink. (Sorry for those of you who dislike the color like my insane friends). It was on odd dream I only wish I could begin to explain or remember for that matter. That is my spill on dreams. Well I can think of at the moment.

Holi Colour Festival and extra

Saturday I went to the Holi Festival of Colours down in Spanish Fork with my brother and cousins. It was so Fun! The Holi Festival of Colours is thing in India how they welcome in the spring. Well it was so fun! As you can tell you get covered in color.

Today I am rearranging my room and I'm stuck on what to do with it at the moment so the project is being postponed in the very messy state it is in. When it is finished I'll post pictures. Wish my luck!

Saturday!!!

I am so happy that I get to see my AMAZING cousin today!

It's been so long since we've seen each other.

Thank you sister for driving me down so I get to see her!

(and we can go shopping of course!)

I feel very accomplished today! I cleaned the living room, got ready, and breakfast and now I'm blogging.

My sister will be super proud of me.

I love how music can greatly influence your mood.

Whether it be positive or negative.

It can totally make you calm and ready to fall asleep any second

or jump up and dance.

My life would be super boring without it.

I probably wouldn't sleep very well

since I have to listen to music to fall asleep.

I love music except for a few reasons...

First, People Sing a song over, and over, and over again so it totally can ruin a song for you.

Second, People write dirty songs, then in gym you're forced to listen to songs with a bunch of swear which is really fun since NO SWEARING is one of my school's rules.

Thank goodness I have control what I listen to on my own.

Well have a wonderful and happy Saturday!!!!

Friends & Seminary

Well today has just been long....

and just unexplainable.

Well two of my friends started talking to each other again after a very long and frustrating fight with me in the middle. I guess it would be a good thing but the only time they talk to me is when they're mad at each other. Well, they don't talk to me very much anyways. Maybe it's partly because I don't see them very often inbetween classes but even then they don't talk to me that much. Is it wrong of me to jealous or even mad? Anyways, I became the third wheel again today. Like always.

Well new topic (I can't stay on one topic for very long, can I?).

I truly love seminary! It can cheer me up no matter what. I can always look forward to it to raise my spirit. Even if we get off topic a lot, just walking into the building can make you smile. There's never any swearing, no one making out in the halls, no fights in the middle of the hallway. There's none of that and it feels AMAZING to be able to count on just a warm, calm spirit that welcomes you.

I love it!

I can only hope tomorrow is better and if not, I can always count Seminary to make my day better.

Thank Goodness for that!

Many Random Topics...

This has been the slowest week ever. probably because I've been sick. can i just say that being sick really sucks and I would die over boredom and pain if i ever had a horrible disease. I feel really bad for all those who don't.

Can I just say that sister is acting a little out of it right now. well so is mother. it might be because they were just shopping and shopping does something to the girls in my family. and we will never know why.

Mom's quote of the day: "It makes my butt look small and my boobs look big"

Oh i love my mother and her quotes. she is the best. one of her other quotes a while ago was "go to the bathroom and the phone will ring, clean the doorknobs and your kids with come home".

Well this was my great attempt at a post. Enjoy!

Just For You!

I'm going to attempt to blog again. Just for my sister. This has been a super long day... and I really just want it to be over. It started out horrible all day but as the day go on I decided to not let the snow or friends to get me down. I'm going to be happy for me. Today I made a great valentines box for my sister (It's not finished yet, but it wil be Fantastic!)

All it takes to be happy is just the desire to be happy. I'm going to have a positive attitued about things. Well I'm going to attempt to anyways. Wish me luck!

Well Ashley this Post is just for you!

Remember HEART 2 HEART!